I Want to Believe
EARLY WORKS
"What influenced me most when we began to learn about Western contemporary art in the 1980s was not a particular work, tendency, or idea but rather the huge amount of information suddenly made available: this vast, hundred-year span of modern and contemporary Western art. The main impression it left me with was: Damn, you can do anything you want!"
As Cai approached his late twenties, he began experimenting with art-making techniques that directly harnessed the spontaneity of natural forces. Initially he experimented with laying oil paint on canvas and blasting it with air blown from an electric fan that he held over the surface of the canvas, shaping the movement of paint with the force of wind. He titled each of the two works he created in this way Typhoon (1985). Their swirling imagery and the process of creation represent Cai’s yearning to create art that does not just depict a natural phenomenon but is itself the direct manifestation of that phenomenon—in this case, a windstorm.
In 1984 Cai introduced gunpowder ignited directly on his oil canvases, which he positioned horizontally on the floor. He lit fuses igniting the gunpowder and creating loud bangs and flashes of fire, which then vanished in clouds of smoke. The result was a textured surface that looked and felt like an explosion, blackened and charred. Cai would continue to develop a process where these natural forces allowed him to relinquish control, resulting in compositions formed by the random marks of sparks and smoke. Soon after his move to Japan in 1986, Cai switched from igniting gunpowder on painted canvases to igniting it directly on sheets of Japanese-made paper. By the end of this period of experimentation Cai had established a distinctive visual language incorporating the direct effects of gunpowder explosives.
Cai’s early two-dimensional works focus on themes that would continue to resonate through his work:
- references to Chinese folklore and mythology;
- the use of gunpowder, a famous Chinese invention that is charged with cultural nationalism; and
- the expression of concern for humanity—the human condition in relationship to “the visible and invisible worlds”—which remains his central subject.
The gunpowder painting Self-Portrait: A Subjugated Soul (1985/89) is a transitional work made during the end of Cai’s time in China before he moved to Japan in 1986. He never showed the gunpowder paintings in China because he was concerned that they would be misconstrued as a “rebellious gesture or unpatriotic act.” The work reflects the tumultuous emotions he experienced during this period. Cai took this work with him when he left China and reworked it after the events in Tian’anmen Square in 1989, repainting the background and adding the subtitle A Subjugated Soul. The revised title superimposes new meaning on the painting by projecting the feelings of alienation and loneliness Cai experienced as an expatriate separated from his homeland during a dark time in its history.

